Hal-hal macam ini tidak pernah terlintas di pikiranku hingga 2 tahun lalu, saat seorang teman menanyakan padaku umur berapa target nikah. Berbagai respon pun muncul, mulai dari kaget, heran, takut hingga yang terakhir, menjauhkan diri dari segala hal yang berhubungan dengannya. Tapi lambat laun aku menyadari, respon itu terlalu berlebihan. Hanya dengan hal konyol itu aku memutus tali silaturrahim? Astaghfirullah.
Kemudian, setahun berikutnya. Suatu saat aku sedang makan bersama dengan kakak perempuan-ku. Tiba-tiba dia menceritakan padaku soal mimpinya. Ia berkata bahwa ia telah melihat sosok seseorang yang menemaniku nanti melalui mimpinya. Dengan detail ia menjelaskan ciri fisiknya mulai dari kulit putih, tinggi, mata sipit, agak gemuk hingga yang terakhir.. ganteng, katanya. Entahlah, untuk apa aku mempercayai mimpi seseorang
Sehari setelahnya, sepupuku berkunjung ke rumah. Setelah lama mengobrol, ia tiba-tiba membahas hal yang sama dengan kakakku, mengenai ciri fisik teman hidupku kelak. Ia tidak bermimpi, hanya ia berkata kalau ia bisa menerawang hal tersebut. Ia berkata hal yang hampir mirip dengan kakakku meskipun mereka tidak janjian sebelumnya. Ciri fisik itu antara lain tinggi, putih, ganteng. Kakakku juga berkata senada dengannya. Mereka berdua sangat yakin dengan apa yang mereka katakan. Bagiku, untuk apa mempercayai hal itu? Cukup di-amin-in saja. Terlintas di pikiranku, untuk apa mereka mengatakan hal yang sama padaku (meskipun mereka tidak janjian sebelumnya)?
Setahun berselang, topik mengenai “teman hidup” ternyata masih membayangiku. Masih lekat di pikiranku ketika minggu lalu, ketika kami sekeluarga sedang berbuka puasa. Kami sedang membicarakan topik soal jodoh dengan agak random. Seketika itu, ibuku menceritakan soal mimpinya. Ia berkata bahwa ia bermimpi kalau aku dilamar oleh seorang insinyur yang agamanya kuat. Responku tentu saja kaget dan berkata dengan nada meledek “ma, kenapa gak dokter aja? Kenapa musti insinyur?”. Meskipun kata ayahku, cukup di-amin-in aja tapi tetap aku bertanya-tanya soal mimpi ibuku. Ibuku menasihatiku kalau nanti sudah selesai kuliah dan sudah bekerja, baru aku bisa mencari “teman hidup”.
Aku bertanya pada ayahku, apa maksud mimpi ibu? Ayahku mengatakan bahwa mimpi itu berasal dari tiga sumber. Sumber pertama, datangnya dari Allah. Sumber kedua, datangnya dari Iblis. Sumber terakhir, datang dari angan-angan yang timbul setelah kita menonton, dll lalu terbayang dan masuk di mimpi. Mengenai mimpi ibu, ayahku berpikir mungkin itu berasal dari sumber pertama, datangnya dari Allah yang memberi gambaran melalui mimpi. Tetapi jangan langsung dicerna, kita harus berdoa dan berusaha.
Meskipun aku tidak menampik bahwa aku sempat kepikiran soal mimpi-mimpi tersebut tapi satu hal yang pasti, Allah malu untuk memberi jodoh yang tidak baik ke umatnya yang dekat denganNya. Oleh karena itu, aku harus introspeksi diri dan terus mendekatkan diri denganNya. Pasrah terhadap segala pilihanNya, karena pilihanNya pasti yang sesuai dan terbaik untukku. Aku yakin, karena Allah senantiasa memelihara diriku serta lingkunganku, hingga sekarang. Alhamdulillahi robbil alamin.
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26 June 1992 : Born
26 June 1993 : 1st Birthday
26 June 1994 : 2nd Birthday
26 June 1995 : 3rd Birthday, it can’t remember that time at all
26 June 1996 : I was four years old at that time, and i think that was a first time my family celebrate my birthday
26 June 1997 : 5 years old back then, my family celebrated my birthday and i was cried so hard perhaps because i was angry with my mom? I dunno, i couldn’t remember much but i still can remember when my mood changed better when i opened all my present.
26 June 1998 : 6 years, there was a presidential election due to chaos in May 1998. Because of economical crisis happened, my family didn’t held my birthday party but i was so glad because my aunt made a birthday cake to me, i still remember those time, clearly.
26 June 1999 : 7 years, nothing special.
26 June 2000 : 8 years, can’t remember much.
26 June 2001 : 9 years, 3rd Grade going on 4rd grade in elementary school. I would never forgot that time. My friends successfully made my mood upside down. Actually, my friend’s birthday on 25th June, a day before mine. On 25th June, all my friends prepared ballons, candies, ribbons, and all equipments that needed to celebrate birthday party. I was there too, helping them. I was whispered to my closest friend “Do they know that tomorrow is my birthday? It’s all they’ve done for tomorrow? for my birthday?”. And calmly she answered “We’ve done these all for Tia’s birthday (Tia is not her real name). Today, is her birthday, right?”. Eventhough i slightly dissapointed, but she were right. When we were done and going home, my friend says to me “You must bring more clothes tomorrow!” and i asked “why? Why should i?”. “Just bring it!” She said. The next day, on my birthday, my friend covered my eyes with a ribbon and guided into a park beside my school’s mosque, a place where they held a surprise party for me. When she took of the ribbon, i opened my eyes and i see all my friends gathered around me. They splashing some water to my body from behind. I’m wet, from up to toes. That’s why they told me to bring an extra cloth. That is the first time i’ve got a suprise party and also many gifts from friends.
26 June 2002 : a decade!! I’ve got a game player which we called “game-bot” *i dunno how to write that thing* and anyway.. there was a world cup held in korea-japan, and it was affected to me of course, suddenly i’ve got a football fever and i really like football. Thanks to my brother and my cousins who teach me how to play football. I was chosen as a captain of girl’s group in my class because i made two goals and avoid the girls team from losing against boys. Eventhough we were lose from boys in second match 3-1, the only goal we had from penalty *i’m the executor*. I was happy at that time.
26 June 2003 : 11 years, another surprise attack from friends. The difference between those time and before it is.. it wasn’t planned. They just splash me with some waters soon after they knew that today was my birthday. They knew because my cousin, who a year younger than me and attend school together with me, started telling to all my friends she knew about my birthday. Thanks god, i’ve brought an extra cloth. I’ve got a note from her which i still keep it.
26 June 2004 : 12 years, farewell ceremony of my elementary school was held. We must stayed at a place where held farewell ceremony for two days and one night, started from morning of 25th june-till 26th. We had many activities on 25th June and the most suprising is… started in the eve of my birthday. We were awaken till the midnight. Me and all my classmate (only girls) stayed in a big room. I thought they didn’t notice my birthday, but when i’m awake, they cherish me and singing a birthday song together. I was so glad and touched at a same time.
26 June 2005 : 13 years, spent it with my family.
26 June 2006 : 14 years, i’ve got many gifts from my close friend. They gave me a towel with ac milan logo in it *i’m a fan of inter milan*, a mug which had a germany flag draw outside the mug *i’m a fan of italy, back then* and a glass which had inter milan logo. Eventhough, they felt sorry for it (because only one gift that suit me) but it’s okay, i’m so glad having them as my friends.
26 June 2007 : 15 years, i was graduated from junior high with excellent scores and continued my study to one of the best national high school in jakarta. I’m considered those were the best bithday gifts that i could have.
26 June 2008 : 16th years, another football event was held. That was euro!! Spain is the champion and that is the first time i became a fan of spain.
26 June 2009 : turn into seventeenth!! My family was held a birthday party, but we celebrate it with our own way. With hopes and prays.
26 June 2010 : 18 years, a year after king of pop died. All TVs were playing his song at that time. I stayed at home and got bored. I texted to my friend and they told me that they were busy. I never thought they would came to my house, bring a cake and singing birthday song altogether when i was wearing jacket from my sister as a gift. I completely suprised and shocked for a moment. Never thought they were lied to me. I’ve got 3 gifts. Those are a (toy) ball, which had a spain symbol on it. A (real) ball, with spain’s flag colour and a wallet. I’m so blessed having them as my best friends.
26 June 2011 : 19 years, got many prays and greets from my college friends on twitter. My closest friend in college, sent a video as a present. Her twitter’s avatar is a picture which written “Happy Birthday, Eva”. Touchy, touchy.
26 June 2012 : 20 years, getting older and older. My sister and cousins bought a cake and they were trying to surprise me, but i knew it earlier from my nephew. Actually, i’m half suprised but i’m so happy that time.
26 June 2013 : 21 years, just finished my study as a diploma with a great score. My closest friend sent me a link which contains a birthday song that she sing. We were like to sing a song together and we had same sense of music. In exchange, i’m singing a birthday song to her on her birthday.
26 June 2014 : 22 years, this year. Nothing much. Thanks again to all my friends who wishing me a happy birthday. Thanks for all the prays, loves and support over a year. I’ve got a pair of wedges and high heels from my mom. And also a binder file from my cousins because i’ll start my study in new college, next week. i’m never considered to buy any binder file but i’m so happy because i got it, free. Once again, big hug and thanks to all family, relatives and friends for all your supports, loves and wishes, may god bless you all :-*